life doesn't suck afterall.


i think all of the soul searching i've been doing lately has finally paid off.. though we go through ups and downs in life.. i realise that with each mistake i make i learn a new lesson and isn't that the most impt thing about humanity, that we can better ourselves and progress into the future..
for the past few weeks or even months, i have have been like living in yesterday.. constantly thinking about the past.. seriously, i have no idea what am i sad about.. maybe its all the little things in life that i had done.. that had brought 'trouble' upon myself.. either that or the presence of 'some ppl'.. who made me have the somehow.. erroneous belief that life sucks. though whenever i think about things, my life looks like it really sucks to me.. when i think hard.. i'm definitely a very lucky person.. i'm very lucky to have such loving parents.. and also true friendz.. to chill out and to even mug with.. life doesn't suck at all.. and i think it's true.. haha.. i finally get it.. maybe we should live in.. 'tomorrow's yesterday'.. hahha.. which is today. and most imptly, i wanna enjoy life! who cares if she gets everything and i get nothing.. who cares about what ppl have and what i don't have.. who cares about what others think of me.. and who cares about how fantasic or good or what i call 'supercalifragilisticexpialidocious' henry's or zhi li's or whoever's results are and mine's.. like.. 'tihs'? i dont care anymore.. i just wanna live life and enjoy it.. no matter how 'yttihs' my grades can get, at least i tried.. and whatever results i get.. i will try very hard to get better.. i don't believe i can't make it.. and i don't believe either, that i can't be like my bro.. haha.. maybe being alone at home for some time is good.. at least i had a quiet environment to sort things out.. and also.. i realised washing clothes isn't as easy.. and my mom had to do the laundry everyday.. today is mother's day.. though they are like hundreds of kilometres away (is it hundreds or thousands?).. i hope that my mum knows that i really love her alot.. although i may be rude at times.. haha.. i think i've written alot.. better get back to face the books again..

well at least life is good now.. :)